why?

Where did all these fake people come from?
I am that person at sometimes, but why now?
Did I or some I know change in anyway?
Are we not liked because we are being ourselves?
So many questions without answers!

Are we now people who talk about other behind their back?
Can we not express how we feel about those who are close to us?
Why be fake anymore?
We should not be fake with close ones, we just should not be at all!

Can we not enjoy who we are together?
Do we HAVE to play the secret game when we know it is not one?
Why should we do this to each other when we talk about love all the time?
Loving is the only thing that matters in relationships.

Are you just here because of the history you share?
Don't you get sick of hiding who you really are anymore?
Have we all lost our honesty because it's easier not to confront another?
I miss who we use to be and hate who we are now!

Maybe I am tried of being fake.
Maybe we should all be tried of being fake with each other.
If we don't like it each other then stop being all together.
Is life really worth all this. Did we really lose who we are somewhere down the road.

Maybe it is not others but me and I can not see it.
Maybe it is not others who have changed but myself.
I use to see myself as a caring person but maybe I have changed and stopped caring.
I can not be in a social life with others if all we do is act fake when we see each other and then when someone leaves the room say something behind their back.
Has friendship and close ones always been like this?
I want to go back to when we never had to hide our imperfections, but rather our imperfections where talked about and changed, or we lived with them because that's was made our close ones who they are. Now we talk about others imperfections as a bad thing and never say it to each others faces, now we have to talk about others when they are not around.

I am writing because I am hoping I will change with this. I am not the best person in the world with being fake, I probably do it more then I would like to. I am done with the whispers behind my back, and the whispers I give to others. I want to go back to the time when we all really and genuinely enjoyed each others company!!

just a thought